Skills for responding to harmful service experiences

‘I’ve made a complaint about a worker when they were really rude unnecessarily. And I’ve advised other people to do the same if I’ve heard stories that are unjust. If you could turn that lens away from yourself and outside, that’s one way of being an activist. And that doesn’t mean going to marches and things. I didn’t have the energy or the ability to do that. It means doing it in whatever capacity that you can. I think it’s really, really important. I tried to do that in the times I was able to. Standing up against ignorance and discrimination.’

‘One way to complain is when you just get angry and you say then and there, you know, “your service is stupid.” That’s the one way, and it’s completely valid, but that’s probably not gonna be that efficient. So have a think about why you’re complaining and what you want to complain about. So if you want your complaint to have an impact, then you wait till you’ve calmed down and you write it out and you work out how you’re gonna do it. Are you going to do it in writing? Are you going to phone someone? Does the organisation have a complaints process? You can say, “I want to hear what the resolution is,” and you can ask for it to be anonymous or to have your name to it. So you need to put some time into it. And then if you’re going to do that, you’ve gotta think, is it worth it? You know, how important is this to me?’

‘I had one experience that was distressing and I made a complaint and the complaint went nowhere. And there was so much emotion and it was completely wrong and unfair. Sometimes you’ve just gotta let it go. And that’s what I decided to do with this service, to just let it go. Even though I knew that it was wrong completely and I knew that they made assumptions and judgements and did the wrong thing, I had to let it go.’ 

‘If the kids were with me when services were harmful, even if they didn’t fully understand it, I would try and talk to them about what happened, and explain why it was wrong and unfair.’
‘When we experience unhelpful services, if the kids witnessed it or are aware of it, I’ll turn the blame back around onto the social injustice. Letting them know that it’s not us that’s the problem, it’s the system and the system doesn’t always work.’

‘There were times when I got really upset with workers. In one homeless refuge, we only had small bags of possessions I held onto like they were gold, it was all we had. To anyone else it was s*** but it was important to us. The workers had left our belongings outside and they got rained on.
‘I literally lost it. I screamed, got hysterical. I completely lost it. It was a traumatic response. My kids were all there. My eldest came in and grabbed me and hugged me and said something to the worker like, “Can’t you do something?” but they didn’t.
‘It was scary for my kids – I was their only person, we’d lost everything. I was the only stability in their lives. To see their stability not be stable was scary for them. They needed a rock and I wasn’t that rock for them.
‘Afterwards, I said to the kids what I used to say a lot when I lost control in those days. I’d say: “I am still really upset over things that happened, it’s really hard. I’m sorry I lost control. I’m doing my best, but it’s so hard to recover from this and what’s happened to us, and what the workers did was wrong.” It was about reassuring them that this was not because of who I was, but because of our circumstances. They could understand my behaviour in context. I had to have these conversations a lot, many, many times.’

‘I would say think about teaching your children the skills of understanding the situation. If you are really broken down by something and your kids just see their parent really struggling, cranky, not present, and the parent doesn’t have the capability to have that conversation; to say, “It’s not you, it’s not me, it’s this outside issue” … then the kids just see Mum, you know, “effing up”. But if you can have the skills to be able to say, “Yeah, I’m really messing up right now and I don’t like who I am, but it’s not me and it’s not you, it’s this…” then that teaches them that you can have these bad moments, but it doesn’t mean it’s gonna be like that forever. And you don’t have to take that on as something that’s a part of you because you are teaching them to externalise it and to put things where they’re meant to be.’
‘When we were homeless and going through the refuges, there was one particular refuge, which is really, really, really bad. When talking to my kids, I was able to explain the treatment that we got at this refuge in the wider context of the inadequacies of the system. The kids saw me at my very worst in that refuge. They saw me not functioning, but I was able to explain that for them. I think they could see that I was suffering under the weight of all the stuff that we’d been going through.’
‘Also, you may not feel ready to reflect on poor or unfair treatment by services at the time. You might not feel ready to revisit it until much later down the track. It’s never too late to bring this up and reflect on it. If it’s much later, I have found this can also be a way to open up a conversation about what happened with my kids and together reframe what happened from an experience of distress and disempowerment to one of “We did what we needed to and survived a broken, unfair system.”’

‘Over time, we have found which services are the ones that are genuine and really willing to help you and not just you, but your family as well.’
Sometimes you may be able to find community networks online where information is shared about culturally safe services and experiences others have had.

‘Services can leave us feeling terrible, and this can impact our parenting. So I do grounding exercises. Or maybe music, going for a walk, or some way of taking frustration out somewhere else before you put yourself into a situation. I’ve been in that position too, where I’ve had the kids with us when I’ve had to deal with harmful services, and then maybe we can do something as a family like go to a playground afterwards.’

‘In situations where I’ve had bad experiences, self-care is really important. To come home and have a bath or shower or find someone that you can talk to about it – not one of the kids – but like a friend or a support worker, or your partner or whoever, and just decompress and get it out. Because sometimes you’ve gotta let it go. If you hang onto it, you are frustrated, you are agitated, irritated, you can’t sleep properly; then that leads into being cranky the next day and that impacts your kids; then it’s even harder for everyone.’

‘The expectation that I should be grateful… why should I be grateful that this charity, that has so much money, is giving me their pittance so that I can eat in an unjust society? The ability to say “f*** you” to the system and services (in your head!) helps you avoid being taken down, because you keep your dignity.’
‘When my son and I were really in the thick of things and the service provider was being very unhelpful and actually obstructive to us getting the help we needed, I think back on how I kept my dignity because I spoke up for him and me, and kept my cool. I felt like it was the only thing I had control over at the time and makes me feel proud that I managed to do that.’